Countdown...

Roughly I have about a week and a few days untill I am Married to Mr. Kelly and about 2 days untill liftoff to Utah. I am excited and so are the kids, they say, "I want to go to grandmas house!!!" "Are we going on the long drive now???" I think this will be fun for the kids and it seems like most roadtrips with Kelly are a good time to "grow together". On a side note I believe that I have royally pissed my sibling off, and a few other things happened over the weekend that were fun at first and awful in the end because I have too many bunny trails in my brain, but Kelly toughed it out and we decided that it was all abad idea and it will never happen again. I can't help but feel as though some sort of innocence was lost though-mostly because the ugly side of me reared it's head and Kelly went, "WHO IS THIS????!!!!" I am pretty good for the most part I must say, though some things of course could be better.

F-U-N to me spells L-A-M-E to most.

This is why my life is impossibly funny-I let the kids pick my wedding dress online. ANd my shoes out of the closet. But thats not the best part...Yesterday our long awited dress arrived in the mail Via the Postal Service, Jordan got to retrieve it. I stated with glee to the children, "THE WEDDING DRESS IS HERE!!!!!" to which they respoded , "GO PUT IT ON!!!!!!" SO, I put on said dress, and children said-"wow, you are a princess." We danced and took pictures and it was great, now, most people would really hate children clinging to thier dress and bouncing up and down but to me i t's the best, and that, my friends, is why I shop online...That and it's like SOOOOO much cheaper.

GUILT is a Four Letter Word.

What I learned this weekend is:

-My Mother no longer wants to speak to me.
-Honesty is SO NOT the Best Policy with some people.
-I feel really bad about telling AJ about me Planning on Getting Married.
-I am really concerned about how these kids are ever going to end up Okay.

I am kinda nervous and excited about all these trips comming up-Super Excited about having a nice Christmas, Nervous about Vegas. Kelly and I did the CHristmas shopping for the Kids Yesterday and Got him a nice shirt for the Wedding. We got all of Christmas done for about 100 dollars (for 5 kids that is SUPER) I LOVE HIS SHIRT!!!!! It totally says "VEGAS WEDDING" and makes him look all GQ and about 10 years younger-So now all I have to do is Cut his hair again before we go and we might look close to the same age. LOL. My dress is on the way in the mail-Hopefully it doesn't look really awful.

Pete and Re-Pete

I am nervous about getting remarried, and even more so about telling AJ. But I need to do it and give myself a mental athletic shake down and get ready for the BIG SHOW. If you know what I mean. Anyway-So here it comes and it's comming fast, hope I don't run in the opposite direction when it comes to be show time. I just really do not want this to be another AJ and Nikki Saga but with Different names, not that I think that it will be that way-I just want to be prepared. I have been noticing that I am thinking in my DOOMS DAY mentality about marriage again. You know, the, Well, if it doesn't work out then this is my PLAN B. ECT...I can't shut off the part of my brain that is looking for games and lies and waiting to you the afore mentioned and planned out PLAN B. I guess I do not expect to have anything truly good come my way.

No Joke.

Sooooo, I guess he wasn't kidding. We are going to shoot for a New Years Wedding even if we end up in Vegas to do it. LIFE IS SO RIDICULOUS SOMETIMES.

Huh?

So-Today at Kelly's lunch-which he was here for- he walked out of the Back Bedroom Saying, "What About a New Years Wedding? That would be neat." (insert CJ's famous "huh?") I am not sure if he was being serious or whether it was the fact that Jordan said I was his wife, and no one could marry me. Haha, Jordan is a funny Kid, he did the whole scenerio thing took me to the "altar" (which was the bar in the Kitchen) and said, "one, two three, Now we kiss and you are my husband, I mean girlfriend, uhhh WIFE!" Then he sat on the living room coffee table and brushed my hair and said, "Are you relaxed yet??" Then I made Christmas tree Projects for everyone to do-It was Very romantic. LOL. I would not mind marrying Kelly, in fact I think we both are on the same page in the fact that we would like to be married....soon.

Viva Las Vegas

So, I survived Thanksgiving with the Kindreds. It was nice-less chaotic than Ridley Village. Needless to say, my Mother is rather PO-ed about that. Also, On friday Kelly and I headed South for the Glowing Lights of Las Vegas. Now what does a Nice Christian Couple do in Sin City?? Well, mostly they don't sleep, don't drink, Don't Smoke, Walk a Lot, and Compare Boob to Head size ratio's on the Slut Calling Cards. They also attend a Random Wedding for Scott and Wendy. It was crazy that we were all, Including Grandma and John, there in Las Vegas, it was great. I was glad that everyone met Kelly, even though we forgot our razors, and flat irons, and he was weraring his work safety glasses (which make him look like a bug, which he realized and makes a BUZZZZ BUZZZ noise for me every once in a while. However on the sunject of funny things Kelly does, his Gump Voice and Bird thing he does are still my personal Favorites.) It has been a crazy last few days but well worth the people we saw, and the bonding we shared.